Adjustment

A strong character does not necessarily lead to strong emotional self-control, actually it might exactly be the opposite. Honestly I am not able to control my own emotions. I used to think that a strong character must connect with strong emotional self-control, not true.I am incapable of growing alone, I am almost like a parasite, constantly seeking for a secure place for me to lean on to. But once I find a place, I quickly discover that it is not secure enough.It is never secure enough. You should not cry when there is nobody watching. Even little kids know about this. When they fall, they only cry when their mother's right beside them, and they cry to gain attention, to get help.So I shouldn't cry, when I am alone. It is simply not practical, not effective, not beneficial. But actually I cried,I quickly found that I wasn't a good emotion-controller.I have little appetite these days,for great pressure.I am not very happy, well, I might not be that happy the other way around either.For God sake.I can cry.It is somewhat a good way to relieve myself.As there's a sentence"tears is the best weapon of women".In fact,it is the best way of relieving pressure.I got so much influenced by some readings .Thanks those books.